I haven’t been feeling my best lately, not health wise but just mentally a little lost. Yesterday marked four years since I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I was very fortunate to spend the day at an amazing Food Matters Live workshop. As I listened to all of my idols talk (James & Laurentine from Food Matters, Jon Gabriel, Lee Holmes, Dr Libby Weaver and Kim Morrisson) and then danced to the talented Wes Carr, it occurred to me that what I am seeking is CONNECTION! By connection, I mean the amazing feeling I get when I have conversations with like-minded people or sit in an audience listening to people who rock my world. I get excited about sharing knowledge and learning and it is even more electrifying to be sitting in a room filled with people who want to learn, thrive and flourish.
I am beginning to realise that in the past and even now I have limited myself to one-on-one connections and find that it can end up leaving me quite isolated. I think this connection with just one person might be too micro and maybe I need to look on a macro level and think bigger.
Lately I have been noticing that I am surrounded by strong, fun, amazing women who are absolutely inspiring me. I recently went to the movies on my own, actually twice last week to see Brooklyn and Deadpool (definitely have a crush on the hilarious Ryan Reynolds). Anyway, when I mentioned this, I was surprised that lots of people I know, especially women, go to the movies on their own.
This planted a seed in my mind that maybe I am not alone in wanting to connect with people. Maybe, sometimes it would be nice not doing everything solo and be part of something bigger. So do I start a book club or spiritual women’s circle or can I just suggest we hit somewhere with live music and dance? How do I connect with these amazing women?
I guess the point I am trying to make is that I am surrounded by these connections I seek already. I tend to opt to do things alone thinking that everyone around me are busy but what if they are looking for the same thing I am? Maybe I just need to pull off a classic Taylor Swift move and get my squad together. It might feel intimidating at first, but once I take the bold first step, hopefully things will start to fall into place. I simply just need to be brave, disregard my fear of rejection and just ask “do you want to join me?”
Can you relate to this?