Authenticity requires a genuine willingness to be vulnerable and transparent, without it we will have no personal integrity. I am about to go on an overseas adventure and in an effort to be totally transparent I wanted to admit that I am feeling a little apprehensive.
I am the absolute first person to admit that “I am not a traveller”. Actually to be totally honest I have been digging my heals in the ground. I keep asking myself – Why is John (my late husband) not here to enjoy this amazing trip with the children and I? I spent the weekend missing my husband more than ever. It seems like even an amazing overseas holiday is tarnished with sadness and loss.
After quite a few cleansing cries, this morning I woke up with a more positive outlook. I decided that I was being ungrateful and maybe even feeling a little unworthy of such an amazing holiday. It is often difficult to accept abundance in my life. I think I was blocking the abundance and even feeling guilty that my late husband was not here to experience it. I need to give myself permission to feel worthy and deserving of the immense privilege to take time out to travel with my beautiful family.
So, I am all packed (thanks to my mum who is an expert packer) and no longer digging my heals in, instead I am ready to step onto the plane and experience a very new adventure in my life.